I'm not one for making my private thoughts public- it's quite uncomfortable, but I've realized that sometimes sharing hard things can be healing.
This devotion is SO for me today!!
I have been dwelling on different therapies and such for Zayne and Noah this summer, knowing that, if I'm not careful, I could overwhelm us all! There is always this dooming feeling that your racing against this short window of time to get them all the help they need so that they can reach their fullest potential. I believe that comes from all the reading you do early on. There is such an emphasis on getting the most amount of therapies as soon as possible for the BEST outcome. Who doesn't want the best outcome? Everything says push them out of their comfort zone. Expose them to everything you can. So for me, things tend to stops becoming "for fun" and everything becomes "potentially life-changing or therapeutic". Swim lessons, a sport-because that would be good for his social skills, learning to work as a team, taking turns and dealing with taking a loss from time to time. Music lessons (have you heard all the benefits playing piano does for the brain?) Equine therapy would be beneficial in so many areas, speech, OT, PT, a reading tutor, social skills training because let's face it, they have autism and talking and expressing is a challenge around here. Aba therapy is an actual possibility now but the nearest one is 45 minutes away, but I'm willing to do it if it means "the best outcome". Also the possibility of art classes for Zayne could be in the works. It's exhausting. It's great to be intentional but maybe there is such a thing as being over-intentional? Obviously there's not enough time (or money) for them all. Zayne and Noah are just 2 out of the 5 of us. I still have Nathan, Drew and myself to think about. It doesn't take long to start feeling overwhelmed!
So Lord, I'm praying that you would help me sort out what's important and what's not. What needs to be done now and what does not. Help me to focus my attention on You. Lay the sticky notes and the checklists aside for the moment and trust that You've got this and I'm not left on my own. They are YOUR children and if it's important to me as their earthy parent, how much more important it's got to be to you, their Heavenly Father. You want the best for them just as we do.
